The easiest things to me are sometimes the hardest for others and the hardest things for them are what seems most obvious to me…
I see myself best in Liverpool Football Club.
Talent, with half-ambition equals 18 years without true success: 18 plus years of my life based on a foundation so sound and secure that one is only destined for success!… and yet.. why the failure??? Failure is not failing to do something but failing to achieve that which you have been predestined for…
Why does Steven Gerrard not have the biggest prize that all his talents deserve ?
The Answer: Conspiracies that come from within, conspiracies that force him to settle for second best, conspiracies that come from the mind and yet he sees reflecting on the outside what is looking in : “I THINK.. and therefore I AM”…
Perhaps had he stopped to think would he have fallen upon the realisation that perhaps those outside are not the problem but that which is within is…
Can he imagine fulfilling his great potential?
The potential that sparks not great fear it does but great belief in a cause that was predestined to him but taken away by youthful exuberance and procrastination… That word.. PROCASTINATION… Shall I say, that I will leave this topic to another day?? Perhaps…..
What is our purpose?
We live through life contributing to other people’s purposes… “Obey your thirst”: have I ever stopped to think whether or not that can of sprite DID quench my thirst or did it only fulfill theirs??? by perplexing my need for more of his greed… is my sweat the fruits of his success???
Where do I stop demanding his and start providing for mine???
Yesterday, funnily enough, I realised for the 1st time why one year older is not one year lived before or after, but one year more of having life’s trials and tribulations continuously beating down on you….
“Age aint nothing but a number” they say… perhaps.. but numbers is all that our life is about… 05/05/07… what does that number mean to you??? Perhaps nothing, but to me… everything… I carry it with me everyday, sometimes I don’t even know its there but when I look down… there it is
05/05/07
How do I relate this to Liverpool???
18 years.. 18 years with so much promise and yet no real success..
and yet I still BELIEVE…. one day my friends we’re gonna make it..
PREMIERSHIP CHAMPIONS and perhaps I can then add number 1. to my growing list of numbers…..
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This was written by my younger brother a few years ago. With his permission am sharing with you all. Every time I read it I am inspired, inspired to write more, inquisitive and perplexed. Understanding so much of his questioning and how he relates it to so much in his life and to life in general .
Trials and Tribulations make us who we are and forge the people that we become. It is important to get up after every fall. He speaks of Liverpool and numbers, if you don’t know him you probably wouldn’t understand his love for the liverfools or what the numbers even mean to him. I am not a supporter of Liverpool but I have watched teams I support go down lately and the numbers well they have a meaning to me too. What I do and can retain from this or at least what I understand from it, is that, the only thing or person that often stops us from reaching greatness is ourselves so I think back to a quote from Marianne Wilson:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
And then I add to you my dear friends, this truth is NAKED to me. Sometimes I feel like the world is crumbling all around me or conspiring against me when the numbers just don’t fit. 05/05/07 – he carries that number with him every day as a tattoo, as a reminder of what he has lost (our brother) and what he stands to gain from not giving up and not looking at himself as a victim but rather finding the greatness within.
Ambition, Procrastination, Talent…words that are haunting me presently, My trials and tribulations Where the hell am I headed? What are my numbers? And how Do I make ME better?
Naked peeps what are your trials and tribulations and how do you fight the conspiracies within?
